on stigma and staying afloat

I spent a handful of years as a touring musician. The extent to which I toured was minimal compared to the real ones that have committed to the lifestyle, but nonetheless I made a brief go at it. About halfway through my first tour of any real substance I realized that I hated almost everything…

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opinion: nuance matters

All of our disagreements are missing one thing- nuance. What if I were to tell you that I agree with 95% of the stuff you put on your various social media channels? The snarky quips, the political think pieces, the in-depth explanations of why Libertarianism is dystopian bullshit or whatever other really great points you…

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a lifelong obsession with ghosts

I have been haunted for a majority of my life. I’ve talked about it some, but I have mostly just learned to live with the understanding that there are things around me that I can’t understand or control. My first exposure to anything intentionally scary was at a sleepover in elementary school. My friend’s parents…

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the very deliberate spirit of fugazi

There have been thousands of articles written about Fugazi since their inception in 1987, and with good reason. Few bands have had the kind of impact musically and culturally that they have, and almost none have accomplished it in the way that they did. All hail Fugazi, the greatest band in American history. I feel…

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everybody loves you when you die

I was at a wonderful museum in Virginia a few weeks ago with my uncle, a guy who has worked in and around the art industry for many years. This place was huge and wild and had everything from a Tiffany glass collection to Warhol to a Rothko that I took a few dorky photos…

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keep trying- a guide for dads that feel bad all the time

Cliché alert: The day that I met my first child was simultaneously the most amazing and terrifying day of my young life. I had no business being a dad at that point in my life. 24 years old, newly married, stubbornly opposed to exploring reconciliation with my own father… but nonetheless convinced that I could…

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you should suffer more, probably

In doing some reading about wild bullshit theories, I came across one that seems a lot less bullshit-y than the others. The primary idea of this theory is that suffering is unnecessary and that someday we will, through science, make it obsolete. Last week I awoke to my 6 year old son having what seemed…

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i met guy fieri once

Once upon a time I had what seemed to be a promising career in the professional sports industry. Without providing too much detail, at age 24 I applied for a job that I was entirely unqualified for, and ended up getting hired on account of impressing one guy at the interview. That guy was the…

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on darger and the importance of creating your own world

Sometime around my late 20s I began taking a serious interest in visual art. As a lifelong music enthusiast, I hadn’t ever taken much time to appreciate other forms of art because I thought it might take away from my “music-guy” persona or whatever. Somewhere along the way I decided I would be known by…

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starry night wall punch

I remember the first time I ever had a full-on panic attack like it was yesterday, because it was yesterday. I never dealt with anxiety in any meaningful way until my kids had the wherewithal to understand that I’m not perfect. Once you realize your kids are paying attention, you’re fucked. You have to watch…

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